it is not a good day to start any new experiment for me. the repeat - didn't give the exact value like last week. i need a rest due to fatigue and restlessness. i miss everything at home, i almost cried when i saw a papaya at a grocery because it reminded me of my dad. there are a lot of things that remind me of my dad. papaya is one of them. tragic.
my sight have been deteriorating since last week, i just had my eye test yesterday and was given a new prescription to change my glasses and contact lens. all out of a sudden, i feel the surge of aging rapidly. starting with new prescription, frequent need to color hair and worrying too much on uncertain. oh, thinking about how am i going to pay for my new prescription also reminds me of my dad because last time he paid for my glasses. it would be too embarrassing to ask from him again. it is not that i'm totally broke to buy the desired glasses, i'm just worried if i am not be able to pay for the winter's bill. in this austere climate and tight allowance, i feel it is hard to make myself sustainable for unseen future. (heck, i don't have any emergency money). (oh bad, i really miss my dad).
the fact that today is the worry of yesterday, only makes my life sorry with perpetual worry. the worry don't just go away.
it is not a good day for me, i ended my day early so that i could have a rest and reading a novel-turned-movie 'one day' starring kiera knightly with a cup of black coffee to ease my stress.
mr.M will be home late today because he wants to play football prior coming home. only recently i feel that i don't like football because it takes away the time for me to be with him. also the list goes with top gear, match of the day, man vs food, nigella lawson (jealous of her) and soccernet.
i hope that when my sight returns to 20/20 vision, i'll be better and the experiment will be excellent.
